with Tendai Muchena
One day, I was having a heated conversation with God rather than a series of heated conversations. From the time I woke up, there was something I was saying: "How far?" to God about. I had a whole bag of grccievances, _you know by now I wanted to have achieved this but I haven't, why didn't you make it happen, nhingi owes me money and I want my money, why aren't you making them give me my money, by such a time, I want to have achieved abc, but look at how things are progressing, why?
Truth be told, I was not in a good mood at all, and you know how it is when you are not getting the answers you want. I decided to shut off from everything else and do what I like doing, watch BBC, and yaaaa I got hit by answers.
Not the ones to directly answer my questions, but answers carrying a lot of weight. Floods, sicknesses, death, street and school shootings, war. Needless to say, I said a prayer of forgiveness and thanksgiving.
Many things happening around us can easily divert us from the word of God, understanding His ways and just being grateful for what we have. Yes, sometimes it seems like what we have is the bare minimum, but most times, it's so much more than what others have. It's a blessing. You are not buying the list of groceries you want, but others don't know where their next meal is coming from. You are living in a neighborhood you don't like, but others are homeless. You can't upgrade your phone or car or get your nails, lashes, and hair done on a regular basis, but others are too sick, fighting for their lives, to worry about such. Does it mean God will never answer your prayers. Does it mean He doesn't know what you want?
As for the donkeys you lost three days ago, do not worry about them; they have been found. And to whom is all the desire of Israel turned, if not to you and your whole family line? 1 Samuel 9:20
God knows. It doesn't matter how long it has been. Don't worry about the year not going according to plan so far. He is sorting it out, and you don't have to be anxious about it. To top it off, He has bigger plans for you. "Hallelujah Jesu makanaka munondigonera. pese...pese...muripo".
Just sing a song of praise regardless of what you are going through. Thank Him for what you have.
Tendai Muchena soldiers at Marlborough Corps in Harare West Division. She writes here on her own personal capacity. She can be contacted at
muchenatendai90@gmail.com
